trust….

The other night I was re-reading the last chapter of Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning, and stumbled across this gem: “You will trust Him to the degree that you know you are loved by Him.”
It really landed in a fresh way for me. You see, I’ve spent the last few months on a journey to trust God more – to know deep down that no matter what happens, no matter what, whether this or that, esp in prayers and areas that He still has not answered, He is still in control.
And I’ve done everything that I’m supposed to do to build trust in God: I’ve reminded myself of how He’s pulled through in the past, I’ve talked about this with others, I’ve quoted scriptures about His faithfulness, spent more time in prayer…pretty much trying to convince my mind to trust Him more.

Problem is, we don’t trust with our minds. We trust with our hearts.

There really is no logical reason that we trust others. We don’t sit down and come up with pros and cons of trusting someone. We don’t remind ourselves of what someone has done in the past and make a conscious decision to trust them. We just…do.
We trust because of relationship. We trust because our personalities mesh. We trust because we like the person. We trust because of love. and, the same is true of trusting God.
We can’t effectively convince our minds to trust God. Sure, it may help us remember His faithfulness, it may take the edge off our freak-outs, it may even help us trust Him with some of the smaller things in life.
But to really trust God in everything, that only happens with a heart that is fully convinced it is loved by Him.

When we know deep down that He loves us, when we know that no matter what we do, what we’ve done, who we’ve hurt, the mistakes we’ve made, we are still loved…Thats when we will trust Him. That’s when we will know that no matter what happens, no matter what we go through, it’s all for our good. We won’t see hard times as some kind of punishment. We won’t cry out at night thinking that God has left us or doesn’t care about what we go through. We will know that no matter what happens, He loves us… and we’ll trust that He really is going to take care of us.

How would your trust in God change during hard times if you were fully convinced that He loves you?